Almost Lover

Hey you, I'm sorry but I have to do this. I've never been good at expressing myself, but I know I can share more of me by writing this. And I can't let that last conversation we had be our last. So I might as well make this "farewell letter" a memorable one.

You have the kind of smile that can make anyone feel special. Maybe that's why a lot of girls had a crush on you huh? Hahaha. Argh, I hate it. I want you to smile just for me. But booooo who am I kidding?

Remember the time you saw me crying? Do you remember what you said?

We both knew it would end this way, but still I dreamed dreams of doing things with you, of seeing places, of discovering things together, planning my future with you. I've never experienced anything truer than your care, your love, and our connection with each other. I cry for what is, what was and what could have been.


And even if you were only in my life a brief moment, you always tell me how I saved you from your but in fact Raffy, you never knew it but you're actually the one who saved me Raff.

I've been dying to talk to you since our last conversation, To this day when I have good or bad news I go to call you, but then I realize, I can’t. I guess you're avoiding me now and thought to myself this is for the better. It's been hard for me, I'm sure it's been hard for you too.

I hope you never change. I swear I wished this moment would never end. I wished this would go on forever, just you and me, under the night sky, dancing and skipping around, smiling at each other. Maybe in some parallel universe you are still mine.

As I write this, I can hear

Back in Action

Hey you!

Woah, it's been 3 years since my last update in this blog which I never shared to anyone but still got views because of the anime and kdrama reviews I made when I had a lot of "free time". Ahh those were the days! I wish we can turn back time. But no...there's no going back.

I've had my fair share of struggles in life just like anyone else. From my family, to friends, career, love and heartbreaks. It's been one hell of a roller coaster ride especially my 2016-2017. It was a disaster. I think that was the lowest point of my life so far because that was when I lost myself for loving someone too much. I kept my problems to myself, I never tell anyone about it because I didn't want anyone to worry about me. I was at that point when my friends would invite me to hang out and I always reject it because of my fear since they're always telling me "Hey what's wrong? Why are you so thin? Are you okay? Are you even eating?! It looks like stress is consuming you" Ugh, so to save myself from those comments, I would rather stay at home and avoid it!